I am not sure what to feel right now, but I hope it is real this time. I don’t like to expect and then I will just get hurt in the end. The hurting must stop and I mean it now. I can take what is real even that hurts but I don’t like to expect when it is not even true. So please make it true this time but if not at least be honest to tell me because if not, it will hurt me big time. I could not promise if I can hold it this time, I hope I can.